Unbearable Suffering: My Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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